You may be dead in 12 days - alone
Are you still blaming your parents for making your life miserable? I know how you feel, I also did.
Now's your chance to live your own life. You may die, so better to go on your own terms.
We all have heavy crosses to bear. That's life. We can choose to live our life as defined by others, as many do, or to move on and live life on our own terms.
My brother went to his grave still clenching a hatred of our father - unforgiving. Another brother feels the same.
It's not "why me" that matters when you have cancer - although I've heard this often.
I've had two different aggressive cancers. How you react is very individual but "why me" won’t help you or the people around you.
Recently on "24 Hours In Emergency" (UK Channel 4) a middle-aged woman was admitted with abnormally low blood pressure. The doctors fixed that quickly with drugs and then sent her for a scan.
The scan picked up a cancer. Unfortunately, it was malignant.
In the outro interview, she lamented "why me". There was a pregnant silence as the outro faded on her numb expression.
Since I was diagnosed at 50 with Type 2 diabetes I've been learning how to do bone-building fitness training which lowers my age. You can too. It's your choice. Walter